Editing Me and a Gun (section)

==Background==
The song is three minutes and 44 seconds long. Amos wrote the song about being [[rape]]d in [[Los Angeles]] when she was 21. After she performed at a bar, a patron asked her if he could have a ride home. She obliged, and he raped her at knifepoint. Years later, in [[London]], she saw the film ''[[Thelma & Louise]]'' and was stirred.<ref>{{cite news|title=Chasing Away the Demons|url=https://abcnews.go.com/onair/2020/transcripts/2020_990215toriamos_trans.html|work=20/20|date=February 15, 1999|archive-url=https://web.archive.org/web/20010625164506/http://www.abcnews.go.com/onair/2020/transcripts/2020_990215toriamos_trans.html|archive-date=June 25, 2001|access-date=April 27, 2018|url-status=live}}</ref><ref>{{cite news|title=Tori Amos on her new album and the "muses" that inspire her songs|url=https://www.cbsnews.com/news/tori-amos-songwriting-new-album-native-invader/|work=CBS This Morning|date=November 11, 2017|language=en}}</ref>

Amos discussed the attack in a 1994 interview:

<blockquote>"I'll never talk about it at this level again but let me ask you. Why have I survived that kind of night, when other women didn't?

How am I alive to tell you this tale when he was ready to slice me up? In the song I say it was 'Me and a Gun' but it wasn't a gun. It was a knife he had. And the idea was to take me to his friends and cut me up, and he kept telling me that, for hours. And if he hadn't needed more drugs I would have been just one more news report, where you see the parents grieving for their daughter.

And I was singing hymns, as I say in the song, because he told me to. I sang to stay alive. Yet I survived that torture, which left me urinating all over myself and left me paralyzed for years. That's what that night was all about, mutilation, more than violation through sex.

I really do feel as though I was psychologically mutilated that night and that now I'm trying to put the pieces back together again. Through love, not hatred. And through my music. My strength has been to open again, to life, and my victory is the fact that, despite it all, I kept alive my vulnerability."<ref>[https://www.joejacksoninterviewer.com/2020/04/07/the-joe-jackson-interview-tori-amos/ THE TORI AMOS INTERVIEW. Copyright: Joe Jackson]</ref></blockquote>

When released as a single, the track was not the A-side: "[[Silent All These Years]]," another song from ''Little Earthquakes'', was the first track, with "Me and a Gun" appearing third (or as the B-side on the 7" release). "Silent All These Years" was a more accessible song, and radio stations began to play that instead. Ultimately the single was re-released with nearly identical packaging but retitled as ''Silent All These Years.''

Amos made a habit of singing this song during live appearances. In 1994, the DC Rape Crisis Center awarded her a Visionary award for the song and the co-creation of [[RAINN]]. Amos stopped singing the song live in December 2001 and did not sing it live again until September 2007 (with the exception of one performance in [[Istanbul]] in August 2005).<ref>[http://toriset.org/s.php?c=111&t=0 Tori Amos Setlist Database on Undented]</ref>